Friday, December 06, 2002
hah coming to tink of it..
dun tink i really know myself...
cant even decide whether its i've run out of things to write..
or just dat i hav many thoughts..
bud i dun wana post it here?
i just dunnoe..
there's like some things which i dun even noe i shud let go n
carry on... or just simply leave it hanging there.. n dun
bother about it?
bud i just cant seem to decide..
i tink i've alwaz been so indecisive...
sometimes im really at a loss..
feeling so down n lousy..
bud i just dun wana tell anyone abt it..
or just b/c i cant even find one fren really close to me to
confide in?
or mayb im simply someone who just wun wana tok abt my
stuffs to others...
since things nt gonna change much..
seems pointless saying it out...
i kinda dun like the idea of others knowing me inside n out..
i just feel insecure to a extent...
mayb im just paranoid..
i just dun trust pple easily...??
see..
all the question marks..
i've said... i really dunno myself..
i dunnoe wat i wan..
i just feel dat..
many times... im a different me..
i potray nt the same me all the time..
i find it scary...
cos no one gonna really know me well
n i wun really get really gud frens in dat sense..
sometimes i ask: do i really wan many frens or just a few whom
i can confide in?
hahha... as usual i got no ans to dat..
i just feel.. having lotsa frens kinda feel great n cool..
u wun run out of frens to go out with.. or talk to..
bud all dat gonna b mild..
sometimes pple just appear to b frens..
bud so wat... i just feel one day...
u might keep tinking about ur fren..
bud who knows.. dey might hav well forgotten abt u..
blurred...
everything's been blur to me..
i feel as if im wasting my time everyday..
really gonna settle down sort out my thoughts
n get things done.
Posted by yU.Zhong at 10:25 AM