Thursday, October 02, 2003
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ahh i feel its a bad day today. i jus hate getting back papers... now im so equally sad n angry over my physics paper2. =( these papers are jus making our mood change easily.
TOO EASILY! of cos if u get marks out of ur expectation (in a good sense) u would b happy la... but what bout the reverse? it really makes me feel bad. and i start to question: i dint study meh? not as if i dint put in effort... come on dun give me another O grade... enough of it... stop ranking me 90over percent... its just too demoralising to handle! argghh... =) i believe im going mad soon... stop asking me to do timetable which i jus fake it everytime... stop wasting my time on pointless things... if getting papers back may possibly cause me to feel so heavy and sad, i rather not have them. shit... physics paper 3... please save me! i have enough of O... can i at least have an E?
cham... i needa work harder huh. wait there's alot things i jus dun understand n remember... i need to do well. i just cannot accept bad grades. throw them away! dun come to me... ahh im just not cut-out for science maybe. i shud really carefully think what im gg do next time... and not repeat this mistake of torturing myself by being entangled with these shitty results always.
my mood has been exceptionally good this week. im equally impressed by myself being able to maintain being happy... haha but this stupid returning of papers has just destroyed my original mood. hope my mood improves tomorrow... think im lapsing into a depressing mood now... listening to jay chou's ai qing xuan yan... which is a vv nice song oso... besides qingtian, dong feng po... ni ting de dao oso not bad. anyway songs are wonderful... esp jay's =)
Posted by yU.Zhong at 1:41 AM